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loss of my cousin /11:20 AM

i'm supposed to post up pictures of my trip to japan.
i'll do it much later i guess.

i mourn for my cousin, Rui Xiang.
he got involved in an accident and passed away soon after on the 14th of june
i'm in grief.
i couldn't even pay my respects to him.
i'm not even physically there.
not there for him. not there for my poor auntie and uncle who've lost their only son. not that for everything. even his funeral procession. he didn't even held a wake and i didn't get to see him one last time in the hospital and i didn't even get to pay him my last respects.
this guilt lives with me forever.

i don't get it.
he's only the passenger in the car.
the driver and the front passenger lives with minor injuries and yet he suffered severe injuries?!
he doesn't deserve to be killed this way.
brain-dead. have to be put to sleep.
god. how could this happen to him?
he's only 27 with a bright future ahead of him!!

i still can't accept the truth
i wept at night every night in the hotel.
i wept everytime i thought of him and i'll be swallowed by all the guilt.
i'm straddled with the pain and the guilt and the distance between hokkaido and singapore.
i can't wait to get back sg and yet i can only get back tonight.

i miss him.

and i'm really in pain.
with a wound in my heart that can never be healed.




can someone please just wake me up from this nightmare; this grief; this pain; this loss??

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