globetrotting

it's the hols!!

2009-05-25T01:05:00.000-07:00

It's the holidays!!

need i say more? =))

over. post-crit

2009-04-21T07:41:00.000-07:00

it's over.
glad that it's over.
some people still pisses me off big time.
but like i'll let that affect my mood.
can't wait for exams to end and hols to come.

melb trip! or anywhere with a holiday getaway. =)

9. a single digit.

2009-04-05T04:30:00.000-07:00

9 days till design panel submission
had a mental breakdown on studio last thursday thanks to my ass. tutor
my tutor doesn't seem to help much by agreeing to everything the other tutor says
that studio session totally killed my drive to rush for completion
i couldn't do anything for 2 days after submission
got all moody and irritable
that i simply wanna shut myself in my room and not think about anything

i've finally sorted out myself
i'm gonna ignore the fact that i've been to studio that thursday and continue with my design
gonna aim for completion
aim to achieve what i wanna achieve
no more depression and feeling down and self-despise
like that'll help to complete RIBA!!

9 more days.
chiong!

personality test

2009-02-23T03:04:00.001-08:00

it's actually quite true

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

slumped

2009-02-03T03:40:00.000-08:00

felt like i'm going around in circles about the SEP thing
loads of 'what if's flooded my mind
what if it's better to not go
what if i'll regret it to stay
fuck all the what ifs
i dunno what i want anymore
the worst pessimistic thought kept lingering at the back of my mind
and i can't seem to shut it out of my system no matter how hard i try to

fuck it
fuck all the insensible and childish people; click the accept button
i'll decide when the time comes
be still my heart
my heart, be still
why be affected by people when it's like none of their business
concentration is the best solution

going around in circles about design
don't wanna be insensitive and yet not overly sensitive
what is it that i want exactly?
i can't seem to be able to put a word to it
hate this feeling
hate falling into the slumps
can't wait to resolve and climb out

FUCK LIFE

Scotting off to Scotland

2009-01-25T00:08:00.000-08:00

I got accepted to University of Strathclyde for my exchange !

Glasgow, Scotland, UK... cheap shops, famous architecture!!
Hmm.. not sure about the weather.. guess it'll be cool and rainy and sometimes cold..
highest temp. in summer's 20 degree C and lowest around -2 degree C..
hope it won't be too cold to get out and wonder around.

looking forward.. HO HO HO!

surprise surprise

2009-01-04T00:55:00.000-08:00

got a pleasant surprise from pei yoke at the courts ytd..
haha.. so sweet of my LHDDF vice president to gimme a present for my pre-birthday
hehe.. touched. *thanks PY!!*

got another pleasant surprise from Jess, CH, QL they all when i tot we're simply meeting for lunch before the sch sem starts.
they celebrated both Liyi and my birthdays.
thanks girls and a guy (Yi Wei) for making my saturday filled with surprises. =))))

everything changes

2008-12-29T10:07:00.000-08:00

it could be due to the quietness of the night

the stillness of the night

which made me emo and wanted to blog

year 2008 is coming to an end

trying to round up all that's happened this year

it's been a pretty eventful 2008
i've gain mileage
i've lost a close one
i've been in denial
i've experienced
i've learnt
i've grown

the ups and downs are really great this semester
but the ache in my heart never seems to heal
i really hope he's not suffering right now

i realised everything changes after the semester 2 holidays

when i've came back from hokkaido and europe
that's when reality really hit me and tell me that everything had changed

my cousin passed away during our hokkaido trip
and all that remain of him is his picture on the tablet
all his belongings kinda ceased to exist now
and all that i could recall is his voice when he usually talks
his behaviour and his smirky laughter
his sense of humour
his well-mannered self
there isn't much that i can complain about this cousin of mine
maybe besides the childhood memory of him ganging up with my sis and bullying me for what a spoilt brat i am, all that i remember of him is a good-natured cousin who's always there whenever we need help
it's regretful that our frequencies for meet-ups decreased from the usual once a week to once a month and now once every occasion
and there isn't much occasion to talk about as well
but whenever he's here we had fun catching up
at least that's what i think
i hope he had his share of fun as well
i must admit my house isn't that exciting as compared to all the stuffs he had at home

i miss him
and i still do even now

it hurts that i'm not able to do much for this cousin of mine
i'm not even sure if i really understand him well enough
as compared to his friends

the music we both like
still melts my heart whenever it's playing in my ipod
and now, it reminds me of him
tears don't pour down that much now
but they're still piling up at the brim
i won't cry
for that won't bring my dearest cousin back
i'll live my life to the fullest
and perhaps live for his sake too
for the things that he's passionate about and no longer has a chance to do so
i'll try to be passionate
for his family that's he's unable to care for now
i'll care
as often as i could
and offer them comfort in some ways
i hope i'll be able to alleviate their pain

why is it that he has to go so early?
no point talking about it since nothing i do can bring him back now
i'll just live my life passionately and not think about wasting it away

everything really changes since the holidays
my family members are getting segregated as well
and i couldn't help feeling irritated everytime they mention that they're going out, going genting or some other places that involved gambling
it's irritating to see how they fight over little things in life
it's irritating that i'm actually so irritated by this and am unable to voice out except for pulling a long face in front of them
i wanted to be appreciative
but it's really hard to do so in front of them

has my perspective towards life changes?
i wonder

waned

2008-10-28T00:18:00.000-07:00

been so worn out these days.

not been getting into the mood to do work

and it sucks

but somehow i just couldn't get myself into it

so many readings to do

so many essays to compare and analyse

then what's with the recent email on the exchange places which are available..

i'm tempted in so many directions

UCLA, Oregon, Sheffield, Strathclyde, Seoul, ESA, Delft etc etc...

where should i go?!

and could i really go?

argh....

with my mind perpectually occupied with all these thoughts that's beside design,

my design has definitely been neglected

it's sad la.

ok, i gotta stop digressing

task of the day:

finish reading the SEA seminar reading and prepare for my presentation

post up though-worthy questions to be mention for the seminar

den do design

think through about the golden proportions

incorporate them into the different dimensions

and think of technology-worthy innovations!!

recalling the idiotic times in hokkaido. it's good to let it all out and be an idiot sometimes isn't it?

Updates since start of school

2008-10-16T06:28:00.000-07:00

Pictorial images might be better than words?

anyway, it's been Projectsssssssss and essaysssss and presentationsssss

1-week tropical workshop

den it's our P1 - with environment as our focus

i really like what we've done. too bad the crit didn't turn out well. i love our model (cheater group or whatever), the mappings and our panels which i didn't have the pic for. zzz.

in the midst of these there are the western seminars to prepare for, the SEA arhitecture essay, the sustainable presentation and the report... and now (with P2 going on) we got to prepare for SEA architecture seminar, sustainable building to think of and a Western essay to submit in a week's time. And i really got no idea what to write for the essay!! Zzz... helpless. not to mention our PUNT - Pin Up No Talk is on the coming Monday!

whatever, just keep doing and doing and doing!

the ugly people

2008-09-28T07:46:00.000-07:00

money really brought out the ugly side of people
met up with JS and was telling each other our updates and we realise that we both kinda hate the world, or perhaps how the world turn out when the dollar sign's involved

my cousin passed away
the dead should be left in peace
and the living should be kept in tact, in check, in touch
but no
the other family simply don't bother about the living
but goes on and on about the dead
the main issue for the whole woo-ha is actually the insurance claim

his 100-days funeral
they come to his alter and put on an act
and where are they when help is needed
what the hell
seriously
what's wrong with these people??!

paris day 3

2008-07-21T15:00:00.001-07:00

took a long time to update my blog.

had a weekend trip to vienna. it was really B-E-A-U-tiful! haha. or rather i prefer it there so much more than to prague. not sure if it's the atmosphere or the ambience or simply the fact that we don't have to do site analysis in vienna that makes it better. but i guess it's a mixture of these few factors.

hmm... ok, pictures are worth a thousand words. i think. so here's the visuals for now.

sorry, still at paris. day 3.

Cartier foundation.

Museum d'Orsay My favourite painting.
Whistler's Mother

cute bear aye?

Opera House. so musically-inspired la.

Parc de la Villet - Red installationsOne of my top 100 hot european dogs! haha. Eiffel tower in the daySteel structures in the towerEiffel tower at night

and its share of 'lighting-up session'.

visuals from paris

2008-07-06T14:53:00.001-07:00

Day 2 - Arab Institute. PANTHEON. VILLA SAVOYE!! Pompidou.

(pics are a little jumbled up. don't mind.) ;)
The frontage of Villa Savoye.

Up the roof of Pantheon. Fantastic view.
Piece of ART.
The ramp up. Villa Savoye entrance.
Entrance of Villa Savoye.

Arab Institute. The one with the operated openings.

Day 1 - Arc de Triumph. Lourve. Mona Lisa.

Mona Lisa is blurred coz there's like a huge plastic barrier enclosing it and this is thus the best picture i could manage.

ok, i think i'll try to post the pictures in a 2-day sequence. so at least some visuals for now..

CH, happy?

haha... just arrived at Prague. everything seems to pass so quickly! was at brussels yesterday and sprained my ankle. went to the doctor's today. but coz it's a sunday. i have to go to the emergency department which i spent an hour searching for the entrance. and then to come out with a cream and a prescription telling me to walk like a metro's distance to another street to buy medicine. i simply spend the whole day walking. zzz. 50 euros gone just liddat. i'm so gonna claim my insurance.

nights.

Paris

2008-06-26T18:11:00.000-07:00

Entry 25th June 2008

At the Orly Ouest Airport right now.
Flight from Paris to Barcelona got cancelled unfortunately. EasyJet sucks. Seriously.
Ran around the airport to look for a cheaper and faster alternative.
Prices for a 1 hour flight escalates from 70 Euros to 226.26 Euros.
It was really crazy isn't it?
What's more, the journey time for the flight is only an hour.
That's Europe for you huh?

So now here i am in Orly Ouest Airport, waiting for the next flight which is like a day away.
It's 25th 1430 now. Flight's 26th 0700.
Owells, at least i can claim insurance. Or so i hope.

Paris was alright. Like the buildings but not entirely the people here.
People are really friendly but i can't say the same for their service. Disappointed.
Good weather. Albeit a little warm i guess.
I packed too many jeans and now i'm seriously hoping to grab a pair of cheap shorts or something short

It's Beautiful. With a varied mixture of building and architecture history.
I'm grateful to travel with a group of Architectural students.
Our whole travel itinerary is simply ARCHITECTURAL BUILDINGS!! haha.

Travel Itinerary:-

Day 1
Arch De Triumph
Was walking along the street when i saw this Peugeot showroom which i simply can't resist the cars inside!
Palais Invalides
Lourve Museum

Day 2
Garden
Institute D'Arab
Pantheon
Villa Savoye
Centre Pompidu

Day 3
Cartier Foundation
Musee D'Orsay
Opera House
Parc de la Ville
Eiffel Tower

Day 4
Flea Market
White Palace
Moulin Rouge
Centre Pompidu
Notre Dame Museum

Day 5
Ronchamp

Day 6
Notre Dame Museum
Orly Airport

And hey, if you think you're impressed with Singapore's railway system, check out those in Paris.
They got a total of 25 railway lines and railway stations that seemed maze-like and endless and confusing and it's so funny that sometimes you use the same ticket thrice to get from one train exit and onbound to another.
Amazing isn't it?

I promised to upload pictures from my Hokkaido trip but i've left the pics at my home desktop.
So another time then.
Make do with the pictures from the Europe architectural trip kay.

I still miss my cousin.
And the ache is still there whenever i thought about it.
It's painful.
But i've promised my aunt that i'll be safe and sound.
So i'll stay strong.
I'm thankful to those who're concerned about me.

Life and death is likened to a butterfly and its cocoon.
One day, it flies free like never before.
And that's the way we should face death.
Let it go and let it gain its freedom.
My dear Cousin, hope you're doing well over there.
Do appear in my dreams once in a while whenever you're bored;
whenever you need someone to talk to.
Alright?

pictures another time

loss of my cousin

2008-06-17T11:20:00.000-07:00

i'm supposed to post up pictures of my trip to japan.
i'll do it much later i guess.

i mourn for my cousin, Rui Xiang.
he got involved in an accident and passed away soon after on the 14th of june
i'm in grief.
i couldn't even pay my respects to him.
i'm not even physically there.
not there for him. not there for my poor auntie and uncle who've lost their only son. not that for everything. even his funeral procession. he didn't even held a wake and i didn't get to see him one last time in the hospital and i didn't even get to pay him my last respects.
this guilt lives with me forever.

i don't get it.
he's only the passenger in the car.
the driver and the front passenger lives with minor injuries and yet he suffered severe injuries?!
he doesn't deserve to be killed this way.
brain-dead. have to be put to sleep.
god. how could this happen to him?
he's only 27 with a bright future ahead of him!!

i still can't accept the truth
i wept at night every night in the hotel.
i wept everytime i thought of him and i'll be swallowed by all the guilt.
i'm straddled with the pain and the guilt and the distance between hokkaido and singapore.
i can't wait to get back sg and yet i can only get back tonight.

i miss him.

and i'm really in pain.
with a wound in my heart that can never be healed.

can someone please just wake me up from this nightmare; this grief; this pain; this loss??

royales (minus ro) meet up!

2008-06-10T09:53:00.001-07:00

Met Meg and Serene today
for Prince Caspian. (it's good!)

for all the gossips and catch-ups.

Great. Laughter and reminiscent.

The company that's always sought after but only managed to meet up in like once in a blue moon? We gotta try harder.

The ladies

Will be in hokkaido 11-18th june.

So till another entry, onsen onsen onsen!!

Le Premiere

2008-06-08T12:38:00.001-07:00

Started this blog coz Cheng say to show her the pictures.
So i'm gonna kick start the entry. (By typing a few sentences i guess)
pictures coming soon.

Stay posted.

'When everything is coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.'